by leenova54 27 Nov 2012

AWWW, you all care and think about me! Hubby and I both appreciate that so much! Sorry this is so long but it includes why I fell and had the black eye a couple of weeks earlier. It's been wild here. On Oct. 26th when I got up I told John I wasn't feeling well so I was going back to bed, he checked on me to make sure I was breathing a couple of times and then a bit before 7 p.m. he checked me again and tried to wake me. I was making guttural sounds and he couldn't wake me. He called 911 and the first thing I remember was bright lights and men in blue shirts yelling at me to open my eyes, I was already in the Emergency room by then, they carried me out in a blanket cause our house is too small and has too many steps to get their cart through. I was in the hospital from Friday evening till Tuesday evening. Seems a side affect from the one pain pill I was on caused it. I think I am fine now though I borrowed my Mom's walker just to be safe walking cause I now fall over a lot. Scared the hell out of my hubby and my family! At one point during the them I told them I wanted my husband and I asked him if this was "it", as in the cancer was taking me. Talk about a scary time! I am spending a lot of time in my recliner but so tired, you'd think I would have had enough sleep by now but I guess not, lol! It seems that was all caused by a reaction to the pain pill I was taking. From what we figured out so far I had taken the steroids they gave me for the hip pain and it caused me to have blurry vision and the fall and weakness in my legs and suddenly I had thirst like crazy so we got me in for my eyes and they were real bad compared to a year ago so they said diabetes looked to be the cause so then I got the doctor to have a paper ready so I could get my A1C level, he called me and said to call him but we weren't home in time so I called the next day, he got me in and said the level was way high so he had me come in and he checked it there and it was over 500 then so he got me on insulin that day. I had to check my sugar every 6 hours and take insulin if it was over 150, it mostly had jumped around in the 200-300 range but a couple were low enough to not need to take insulin. That was what caused me to fall and have the black eye and face I had posted earlier. My vision has gotten better but not good to where I have any glasses that I can see with. I came real close to going into a diabetic coma, thank God we put things together in time but I still have the pain in the left leg and weakness and fall often

So, my dear friends, I only check in here for a few minutes in the morning to see the one freebie and email, then spend most of the day in the recliner, hubby won't let me roam the house! I am not allowed to go to the basement or the attic where all the Christmas stuff is so that is driving me crazy! If I am gone from the living room for too long hubby starts looking for me. Then I check on the computer before I go to bed. As for the cancer, it is still stable but the doctor said that I could end up back on chemo at any time, I am not in remission, there is no remission or cure for the type of cancer I have, only time. My doctors are all amazed that I am doing as well as I am. Thank you all for being such great friends!


by shirlener88 02 Dec 2012

I have been pryaing for you my dear. What a time you have had.

by michemb 29 Nov 2012

Nice to hear from you Deb.
Sorry to hear things have been going so bad but happy that they have sorted it out. Take time to rest and listen to your body, take it one day at a time, hang in there, better days to come.
You are in my thoughts and prayer

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leenova54 by leenova54 30 Nov 2012

All I do is rest, I want to do some work around the house but I can't stand for more than 5 minutes. Pretty bad when you really WANT to clean the house!

by gerryvb 29 Nov 2012

so good to see your picture here again. Take good care, prayers and hugs for you and Hubby.

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leenova54 by leenova54 edited 30 Nov 2012

Thanks, I'd love to update my pic, I have dyed my hair and look like I am in better shape than I am but I don't think the site is set up to do that yet.

by cherylgauteng 29 Nov 2012

Sad to read this. I really wish that you have some good days in there somewhere. It is so lousy to feel bad every single day and you must get depressed with the fight against cancer and all of the other things that are going wrong ? I am thinking of you daily and hope that you can find a way to cope with all of this at once. My thoughts are with you. Loads of good wishes and big hugs !

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leenova54 by leenova54 edited 30 Nov 2012

Oh how I would love a good day now and then to leave the house on my own and just do something pain free. I am not even allowed to leave the main level of my house because I'll fall down the steps.

by manami 29 Nov 2012

I'm so glad to see that you are positive, and you're doing well. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. With love, Yoriko

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leenova54 by leenova54 30 Nov 2012

Thank you Yoriko. I try to stay positive but it sure is hard and I know you know just what that is like.

by sukira 29 Nov 2012

Dear Debra,
Glad to see you on "CUTE" again. Sorry to hear about the reaction you had from the pain pill. Cancer takes alot out of you, and your resistance is very low. I've experienced it with my husband for the past seven years.
Just be careful, and rest as much as you need. I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Have a joyous Holiday Season, and a Happy and a HEALTHY New Year. Hugs and blessings. Rachel

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leenova54 by leenova54 30 Nov 2012

Thank you. I hate not being able to do things for myself, to hop in the car and go run errands or just look around the stores at the Christmas decor. I don't do anything and yet I am wore out. Hoping 2013 is better!

by oaro 28 Nov 2012

glad to hear from you i pray for you and your husband Thank you for update. Maria

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

No, thank you for caring!

by grandmamek 28 Nov 2012

I think of you so often. I continue to pray for you and John. I am glad to see that you checked in with us. We all love and miss you. Hugs, Mary

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Thank you so much, all I can do is wait for your prayers!

by lidiad 28 Nov 2012

Thank you for the update, dear Debra!
Love, prayers and hugs from

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

I wish it could all be good, I fight and still can't get ahead.

by momhome 28 Nov 2012

I had been thinking of you lately as I had not seen that you had popped in for a quick shout. They say God will not give you more then you can handle, but it sounds like you are getting hit hard. You are a very strong lady and I know you will keep fighting. Just sit back for awhile and let your husband worry about YOU for once. You have done enough worry about him. You will continue to remain in my thoughts and prayers.

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Thank you, so many people care, my hubby is amazed at what wonderful friends I have found through embroidery.

by airyfairy 27 Nov 2012

My dear Debra - so terribly sorry that you have not been well. What a terrible time you have had. You obviously need the sleep so just take it easy and get loads of rest. Many hugs Sarah.

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

I feel I get too much sleep but I hurt and hubby isn't being as helpful as he should be!

by dilceia 27 Nov 2012

OH, my pretty and dear friend, am happy of know about its improvement! Try to rest, do not abuse... We need you here for cheer up us. God exists of protect you magnificently, giving him health and forces to continue the fight. We know that it is not easy, but, is going to pass... It trusts the Mr..
I love you... A kiss in your great heart.
Missed you!

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Oh Dilceia, you always have a kiss for my heart and I thank you so much!

by beatie58 27 Nov 2012

Hi Debra, Glad to see your posting, I too think of you whenever I am on cute. Stay safe huge hugs Sally

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Just stopping in for a moment, it is nice that so many people care about me.

by drro 27 Nov 2012

Dear Debra, I think of you every time I check into Cute, and say a prayer for you! I am happy to read your post here, and I will be looking regularly in the personal section to see your smiling Avatar!! Hugs and God Bless!! Rest in your recliner and keep getting better:>)

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Thank you! I am responding to these as quickly as I can so I can go sit out there and I haven't had breakfast yet and it's past noon. Gonna rest and respond to more later.

by jussyc 27 Nov 2012

Good to hear from your Debra :) side effects on top of everything else! Boo to these side effects & a good right hook to IT.
Rest rest and rest, sleeping is healing. Huge Cyber Hugs Jussy

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

I'd like to!

by capoodle 27 Nov 2012

Stable is good to hear. Maybe you can get your boys to come put up your Christmas for you. Hugs and prayers.

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

It is good but pain free would be better. Family expects more from me than I can do right now, like embroider Christmas things for them (they get it free) and clean out my closet for them to find things they can wear, my cousin's husband has cancer and isn't expected to last much past Christmas and they can't afford clothes for the funeral.

by vickiannette 27 Nov 2012

hello to you Debra, so sorry to hear that you have to spend good sewing-time sleeping. Get well soon.xx

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Yes, pain pills and sleep is about all I get now.

by sdrise 27 Nov 2012

Wishing you the best! I hope everything gets balanced out soon so you will be balanced... prayers are still with you....Suzanne

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Thanks, I wish things would settle down.

by noah 27 Nov 2012

oh my friend we love u even though we never met in this ole life we will meet when the roll is called up yonder .hugs from your friend and remember Jesus is as close as the whisper of his name !! Carolyn

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

We will one day meet up there I am sure.

by olly 27 Nov 2012

You hang in there my friend. You are an amazing woman and you are very close to our hearts. I pray for strength for you and your family. Love Coral

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Thanks, just wish the pain would go away, nothing is comfortable.

by asterixsew Moderator 27 Nov 2012

Debra you dont do thigs by halves do you? Sounds like you are taking care and being watched by your husband. Hugs and Love, Caroline

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

No, I go all out when I do things, lol.

by susiesembroidery 27 Nov 2012

Just a few hugs and kisses and lots of roses and some more hugs, just to make you feel better. Please take good care of yourself. We have surely missed you. Lovies, Susie.

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Thank you, not getting any of those.

by keeponsewing 27 Nov 2012

Deb, just so glad you are alright.... Enjoy the spoiling. (hehehe).... Keep your head high. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, to you. Terre

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Not getting spoiled much, he keeps making remarks that either make me mad or hurt my feelings.

by aleene 27 Nov 2012

Hang in there, I know that it is hard for you to be still, You know that we are praying for you! Good things come to those who wait!
Merry Christmas

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

It is hard, I want to do so much and can't seem to let anything wait.

by emily16838 27 Nov 2012

Love hearing from you....

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Nov 2012

Thank you.

by cfidl 27 Nov 2012

You are totally amazing. I think you run on Love! Hugs for you.

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leenova54 by leenova54 27 Nov 2012

Aww, I think you may be right!

by ansalu 27 Nov 2012

So John has now the chance to spoil you and decorate the house to his taste *lol* Keep your feets quite and don't think about what is externally visible. You have your christmas-candles shinning inside ;o)
Hugs to you my dear

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leenova54 by leenova54 27 Nov 2012

No, I will keep moving things till it is like I want. I will take my angels you all sent me last year off the mirrored wall and put them back on the tree. Told everyone I'd be here for this Christmas too, lol!

by anangel 27 Nov 2012

Bravo, Debra!! You keep that great spirit within you surging!! I admire your gutsy determination so much, dear friend! Sometimes life is a vicious circle, and all we can do is hang on and take each day as it comes, wishing, hoping, praying for the best! Hope it helps to know I care, and continue to pray for strength and healing for you!! My heart goes out to you for all you deal with, cause I know its tough!
Hugs to YOU!

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leenova54 by leenova54 27 Nov 2012

Thank you, I know you have the same determination, we all fight as hard as we can to overcome whatever is thrown in our paths.

by jerrib 27 Nov 2012

Dear Debra: My thoughts and prayers continue for you and your hubby.
Hugs Jerri

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leenova54 by leenova54 27 Nov 2012

Thank you, I'll take all the prayers, and best wishes I can get.

by jrob Moderator 27 Nov 2012

Deb, praying for you and hubby every day. I wish that we could come visit with you one morning. You are an inspiration to me and whenever I see your post, I hurry to open it as I know I'm about to get a blessing. Hugs and kisses!

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leenova54 by leenova54 27 Nov 2012

So sweet of you, nice to know people care so much!

by ssampsel 27 Nov 2012

good to hear from you. prayers & best wishes.

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leenova54 by leenova54 27 Nov 2012

Thank you, doing the best I can!

by muflotex 27 Nov 2012

xox and keep your good spirit up

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leenova54 by leenova54 27 Nov 2012

Thank you so much!