by leenova54 30 Nov 2011

My latest news: OK, there is slow growing cancer, medium growing and fast growing. I have medium growing. The scans when I got the surgery showed they had grown since the last scans. On the 7th I go get body scans and x-rays of my hips and ribs cause that is where I have the most pain. Then on the 14th I go back to the oncologist for a bone shot, I think it is one that is like for osteoporosis cause it can be given in an IV or shot and I saw that on TV and I think it is the same thing. After that I am not sure, she will see the scans and x-rays by the 14th. She is also referring me to Cleveland for another opinion but I have to wait for them to call with that appointment. It is the same type I had in my lungs but this has moved to stage 4 cancer in the bones. I won't know what other treatment I will get till the 14th, as in doing chemo again though she said what they gave me apparently didn't work. There are different kinds of chemo drugs so I will find out about that later. All I can do now is keep you posted as we go. She gave me a prescription for Percocet when I told her my primary doctor had given me 60 of them to take every 4 hours as needed, she wrote her's the same way but I told her I am only taking one about every 5 days. She looked at me like I was crazy and said they didn't want me to be in pain and wait days to take the pills but I don't want to depend on them. Thank you in advance for all of your prayers as I know so many of you are sending them up for me. Good thoughts are very nice too, so thank you!

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by susiesembroidery 27 Apr 2012

Dear Debra, SOrry to hear about your ordeal and bad news. About the pain killers and dependancy: I had been at the Pain Clinic for severe pain, and was put onto slow release Morphine. Prof said, that as long as the pain was real, the body needs to be painfree and it should be used in accordance to the prescription. Therefore it will not be addictive. He was right. When my painlevels stabilised, I was able to let go of the substance without any after effects. Please reconsider so that you can have more quality of life without pain. Love, Susie.

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leenova54 by leenova54 28 Apr 2012

This is a very old post, lots of changes over the time, will post new on May 9th, 2012. I use a pain patch and now and then need a pill.

susiesembroidery by susiesembroidery 28 Apr 2012

I am happy that you are on paincontrol. I also used patches for a long time. Also needed pain tablet with it, but it worked well. May God hold you in His loving Hands. Lovies.

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by eyeztodiefor10 26 Apr 2012

Debra, thank you for the update. I'm so amazed at your fighting spirit! God Bless you! I continue to keep you in my prayers every day. Keep hanging in there!
Meri

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leenova54 by leenova54 26 Apr 2012

Thank you, I don't intend to stop fighting. This is an old post but I will update soon, new tests are first week of May 2012

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by mary51 26 Apr 2012

Sending many many prayers!!!!

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leenova54 by leenova54 26 Apr 2012

Thank you!

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by moonwillow 26 Apr 2012

You will be in my prayers out here in Texas..Everything here is BIG ,,so big hugs to you also..May our Heavenly Father soothe your pain and carry you through these difficult times..You are loved!

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leenova54 by leenova54 26 Apr 2012

Thank you so much, this site has given me encouragement when I thought I was ready to give up but I won't, I will fight as long as I can to be with my parents, husband, sons and all other family and friends.

moonwillow by moonwillow 26 Apr 2012

All you can do is be faithful and positive..If you ever need anything pm me..even just for a prayer...

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by missqueenbee47 25 Apr 2012

leenova 54 - you are such a precious person - I didn't know when you were sending me words of encouragement about my poor brother's cancer - that you were yourself fighting the same battle. You are surely a special person. Thank you for all your concern for us during those trying days - love - Patricia -missqueenbee47

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leenova54 by leenova54 26 Apr 2012

I only hope that anything I said helped. I don't know where my battle will lead, I will be getting tests and scans the beginning of May 2012 and then trying a 3rd kind of chemo mix and hoping for remission. It is in my bones and that is not good. It is in my skull but only the bone, not the brain though I have a brain tumor that they are watching also. I fight hard and tough so I plan to be here longer than the time the doctor has set for me. Hugs and hang in there, Debra

missqueenbee47 by missqueenbee47 26 Apr 2012

you were a big encouragement to me - I hope I can be one to you - you are in our prayers - Patricia

leenova54 by leenova54 27 Apr 2012

Thank you Patricia!

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by nanabs 24 Apr 2012

Deb: Sending healing prayers and a big hug. Praying for things to begin to work for you...

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leenova54 by leenova54 25 Apr 2012

Thank you, a couple of weeks of tests then try new chemo combo is the best I am offered for now.

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by sewdoctor 24 Apr 2012

Ah,, Deb, I wish you well, I wish you pain free, I wish that wishes would make it so...am sending you a gentle hug. Know that you are thought of and prayed for.

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leenova54 by leenova54 25 Apr 2012

Thanks so much. I am just frazzled, posted a new personals! Upped my pain patch and only need an occasional percocet to go with it.

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by holly12 08 Jan 2012

Keep your chin up I will be praying for you as well as manny, many other Cuties. Please try to keep a positive attitude, I know it's hard but it does help. Hugs. Arlene

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leenova54 by leenova54 09 Jan 2012

Thank you, I am a very positive person and try not to let it get me down.

holly12 by holly12 09 Jan 2012

That's great. Will continue to pray.

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by kharriman 06 Jan 2012

I will be praying for you that you are cleared & free of all cancer.

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leenova54 by leenova54 07 Jan 2012

Thank you, I need a miracle.

sewbadly by sewbadly 10 Jan 2012

I wish you comfort. In the treatment and healing of a truely horrible disease.

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by jrob Moderator 14 Dec 2011

Dear Debra, my prayers for you are increasing today. May you feel the hand of God on your shoulder as you see what is in store for you.

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leenova54 by leenova54 14 Dec 2011

Thank you, I will be so glad when this day is over. I will be strong.

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by keeponsewing 14 Dec 2011

today is the day.... Praying for you during the day as you get the necessary attention you need. Love Terre

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leenova54 by leenova54 14 Dec 2011

I am so glad it finally got here, time can drag when you have to wait for something like this. I'll post later what I find out. Thank you!

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by bowlds 13 Dec 2011

I will be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping for the best for you.
Cathy

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leenova54 by leenova54 13 Dec 2011

Thank you so much, there is a lot going on with my body and pain so I want to know every detail of why I hurt where I hurt and what are we going to do to cure it!

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by ansalu 13 Dec 2011

My dear sweetie, you know that you are in my thoughts and I will send as much love through the space between us as I can :o)
Hope your pills help you ease the pain in your ribs...
Big Hugs to you from my little monsters!
Bettina

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leenova54 by leenova54 13 Dec 2011

What a sweet pic of the little ones! Thank you so much Bettina. Ribs still hurting even with a pain pill, yesterday I had to take 3 it was such a bad day, only 1 today. I see the doctor tomorrow.

leenova54 by leenova54 09 Jan 2012

That's funny, I said I had a bad day and took 3 pain pills, lol, I am up to 8 plus the Lidocaine patches!

sewbadly by sewbadly 10 Jan 2012

I really hate cancer. Sorry for your pain.

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by nanniesara 13 Dec 2011

Praying for you!

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leenova54 by leenova54 13 Dec 2011

Thank you, one more day and then I find out everything and then I will do a new post with the findings.

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by bevgrift 12 Dec 2011

Praying for you.
Hugs from Bev

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leenova54 by leenova54 12 Dec 2011

Thank you so much. Have so many people in my corner!

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by keeponsewing 12 Dec 2011

Hi Deb, I just happen to see this. I haven't been on in ages, but for some unknown reason I decided to check in. It must have been the Lord. :) I'm so sorry to hear all that has been going on. I pray you will not be overwhelmed by everything and give it to the Lord everyday. I have come to realize that satan is working double time on all Believers. He knows his time is coming to an end soon and is trying to discourage us. I hate that you are suffering with this and know (on a personal level) it can really get you down, but take heart, because you have many friends all around the world who are praying for you! How many other people can say that? Keep looking up. It might not be God's will for all to be healed, but it is definitely His will for all to make it to heaven. Will keep you in prayer and I will check in often to see how you are doing. Deb, I know people can become addicted to percocet, but you are in a situation where you will need to take something to help you with the pain. Don't do like I do and wait until you have the pain, then it takes forever for the meds to work. LOL...Instead of every four hours, maybe take one a day to see if that will relieve some of the stress from the pain. Love you my friend. May God's riches blessings be yours this season. I know this won't be much consolation right now, but when I start getting pain I do stop and think about how much Christ suffered for me and it thrills me to know it isn't just me but He suffered for everyone. Love you Deb... Terre

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leenova54 by leenova54 12 Dec 2011

Thanks so much. I have started taking one a day but needed 2 Saturday and looks like I will need at least 2 today, had to take one at 6 a.m. but I think I pulled a muscle in my back hanging wreaths out my front windows last night. I know I have a huge number of prayers going up for me. Will start a new post when I get the total results hopefully Wednesday.

leenova54 by leenova54 12 Dec 2011

number of people praying for me. I actually had to take a 3rd pain pill just a little bit ago. My ribs are what hurt the worst and I can't wait till Wednesday so I can find out the details.

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by bowlds 11 Dec 2011

Did you have your appt. at the Cleveland Clinic? I wasn't sure if that is where your tests are being done. I hear that is a very good place.

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leenova54 by leenova54 11 Dec 2011

I have an appointment scheduled for the 20th, it will be my first time there and I have to pick up a CD in the radiology department of Aultman Hospital, that is where I go, it is here in Canton Ohio and I don't want treatment in Cleveland cause it is almost 2 hours to get there. I am hoping for no snow that day. The rest of my test results and scans have already been faxed to them. I just want to make sure I get the right treatment since we thought we had all the cancer taken care of 2 years ago.

shirlener88 by shirlener88 11 Dec 2011

from a couple of your postings - I see your appointment has changed from the 14th and now to the 20th. I will be praying for you dear one.

bowlds by bowlds 11 Dec 2011

I live in rural MT. The town I had to get my radiation in was 220 miles from my home. I would go where the best treatment is. Sometimes the drs. can coordinate with each other and you can stay near home.

leenova54 by leenova54 12 Dec 2011

Oh, that is too far, what a pain trying to get healthy can be!

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by cherylgauteng 10 Dec 2011

All of my thoughts and best wishes. Take the pain pills please :-)if you need them you will not develop any addiction !

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leenova54 by leenova54 10 Dec 2011

Thank you for your thoughts. I am taking the pain pills when I have to, I didn't need one 2 days ago but I took one yesterday and one today, we went to visit friends 2 hours away so 4 hours in the car today means I am taking another very shortly here.

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by theduchess 10 Dec 2011

Debra,My prayers are with you. Hugs ,Stella

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leenova54 by leenova54 10 Dec 2011

Thank you so much!

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by anne55 10 Dec 2011

God bless you and keep you in His arms as you go through this.

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leenova54 by leenova54 10 Dec 2011

Thank you, I am blessed just by the people around me!

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by bowlds 09 Dec 2011

I am thinking about you everyday and hoping your treatment is not too hard.

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leenova54 by leenova54 09 Dec 2011

Thank you, we are not sure what will have to be done and I have talked to the nurse twice since the tests and she has given me different information each time. Now I am confused so I will wait till Wednesday to find out for sure.

bowlds by bowlds 09 Dec 2011

It must be very hard to wait each week. I'm sorry it's taking so much time. I'm sure you just want to get started.

leenova54 by leenova54 10 Dec 2011

Oh my, time flies when you are having fun but when you are waiting for test results it seems like each week lasts a month!

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by chenille 09 Dec 2011

My prayers are with you!
Love and hugs, Nadyne

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leenova54 by leenova54 09 Dec 2011

Thank you, so many people are so wonderful. I will post again after I see the doctor on the 14th.

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by mana 08 Dec 2011

My thought and prayer are with you

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leenova54 by leenova54 08 Dec 2011

Thank you, things are not looking good.

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by hightechgrammy 08 Dec 2011

Debra, HOw did it go today, the 7th? My heart aches for you, and I wish I could give you a long, strong hug and give you my strength. We will be here with you, supporting you and praying for you while you fight and WIN this battle. It's okay to take the pain meds, this is what they are for. You will be stronger when the pain is under control. We care about you, and we'll be praying for you. BIG Hugs are surrounding you from all around the world. Love, Jan

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leenova54 by leenova54 08 Dec 2011

Thank you, 9:45 to 2:15, long day. I am radioactive for a few days from the one shot and had IV contrast for another and had to drink a liter of water with something added to it that upset my stomach but I got through it and now I have to wait till the 14th to know. Why does time fly when you are having fun but go so slowly when things are bad?

leenova54 by leenova54 08 Dec 2011

this thing cut me off again! No news till the 14th, time flies when you are having fun but moves slow when waiting for results!

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by aleene 07 Dec 2011

Best of all to you today at you dr. visit.

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leenova54 by leenova54 07 Dec 2011

Thank you, all went well with the tests, won't get results till next week.

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by lidiad 07 Dec 2011

I'm very sorry about your news. My thoughts and prayers are with you! and lots of hugs!!!!!!

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leenova54 by leenova54 07 Dec 2011

Thank you, hugs are good!

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by manami 07 Dec 2011

Dear Debra, I'm so sad to read the news. But I can see you are a fighter and I pray God will keep you safe to go through all this. Love and blessings, Yoriko

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leenova54 by leenova54 07 Dec 2011

Thank you Yoriko. Yes, I am going to fight. Off to get more tests today and in one week see the oncologist.

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by airyfairy 07 Dec 2011

Dear Debra
I am so very sorry to read your post. Thank you for keeping us up to date with your treatment. Take the pills for your pain, it will make you feel so much stronger.
Sending you much love, hugs, thoughts - Sarah.

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leenova54 by leenova54 07 Dec 2011

Thanks Sarah, I get bone scans and x-rays in the morning and then see the doctor in a week. I'll know more then, 12/14/2011.

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by katydid 06 Dec 2011

I am so sorry to hear all this has come back. I just saw this as I have not been on cute lately only for a few minutes. Your are in all our prayers and prayers have power. Also positive thinking and positive attitude have healing power. I believe this!! Wrap up in that blue scarf that I made for you and stay warm. We all love you. Kay

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leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

Thanks Kay, I had trouble hanging on to that scarf last winter, everyone loved it and said they would be taking it with them, lol. I a very positive though this time around a little less so than last time. I intend to fight with all I have. My one friend and my Mom said my hubby wouldn't know what to do without me, I told them I showed him how to use the new washer and dryer and he has $50,000 life insurance on me! ROFLMFBO!

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by starlizard 06 Dec 2011

Dear Debra... you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Liz

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leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

Thank you! What a wonderful group of people I have found on this site.

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by anangel 06 Dec 2011

I am still sending prayers for a cure for you, and a return to good health! I have heard and read a lot of good things about the Cleveland Clinic; perhaps they will get the right combo of meds this time to eradicate this terrible disease!! May the Lord lift your spirits, and give you strength for all that lies ahead! Hugs!!
Angel

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leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

Thank you Angel, the prayers from everyone here has to have some pull with God! I am a fighter, I am strong willed, if only I could get my parents to be as strong as I am. My hubby hides his feelings most of the time but I catch him looking at me now and then and I know he is afraid of losing me and I strongly believe that no parent should have to bury their child so I plan to hang on as tight as I can and beat this thing!

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by aleene 06 Dec 2011

wish I could give you a big hug. Will keep you in my prayers. I know it is hard now for you to be strong for your parents! Take care of YOU to, and try to find things to laugh about. Laughter is like a medicine for the body,

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leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

Oh, I laugh all the time, especially at myself! I have a warped sense of humor, a tad on the crazy side I think. LOL! Thank you for the hug!

bowlds by bowlds 06 Dec 2011

A sense of humor is a wonderful thing....I'm a bit warped myself. I told our resident goofball at work that I lost a bet and had to shave my head when I lost my hair...he about flipped!

leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

That's a good one!

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by gramsbear 06 Dec 2011

Debra, I somehow missed this post, but be sure God knows our hearts, & I pray daily for all Cuties that are hurting, so I have been Praying for you, but will now put a name to the Prayer. I Pray for God's will to be done in your body, and He wants all of us well and doing fine. Hugs & Prayers, Judy

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leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

Thank you, tomorrow I go get more scans and x-rays to look for fractured bones, I have much pain in my hips and ribs.

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by rw9340 06 Dec 2011

My thought and prayer are with you

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leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

Thank you.

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by kharriman 06 Dec 2011

Prayers for you in hopes the cancer will diminish & leave your body.

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leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

From your lips to God's ears!

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by sewdoctor 05 Dec 2011

Sending you a hug along with the prayers....

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

Thank you, I can always use a hug with those prayers!

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by sewbadly 05 Dec 2011

Just a thought....
How about taking a good friend with you to the doctor visits?
Another set of ears...and my friends took notes as well.

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

My hubby goes with me and I don't really have any friends that would be able to work around the hours of my appts. But good advise.

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by fannyfurkin 05 Dec 2011

I will be praying for you Debra.
Hugs
Alice.

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

Thank you Alice. Hugs and prayers welcome!

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by beatie58 05 Dec 2011

Debra, Sorry to hear your news, my thoughts and prayers are with you and yours! One day at a time! Love and hugs Sally

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

Thank you. More tests Wednesday and then the 14th I get a shot and more information.

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by oldtimer992005 05 Dec 2011

debra, even though i am not very good at expressing my thoughts and feelings, i too am sending you prayers.may god bless you.do not give up.we are all with you.

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

I understand, sometimes the words do not come but I accept all prayers and good thoughts. Thank you.

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by dilceia 05 Dec 2011

I am happy of know that you this willing. God protects her. I am praying for you, my dear friend! I love you! You are very important for all of us.
Kisses in your heart.

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

Thank you, I have so many new friends here that care so much about me.

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by jacquipaul 05 Dec 2011

Debra, my prayers are with you, of course, as are my thoughts. Wish I lived closer, so I could give some hands-on help.
Love and hugs,
Jacqueline

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

That is so kind. I have one friend who came over and helped me clean my bedroom real good so I could sleep well and she plans to help me do more when I am ready.

sewbadly by sewbadly 05 Dec 2011

What a great friend.

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by sadp 05 Dec 2011

Debra, so sorry to read about this, I pray you have the power to overcome and conquer it, take one day at a time and have a kick-ass spirit, you can win, hugs S*

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

I am going to fight with all I have, I have too many things I haven't done yet!

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by snowbird42 05 Dec 2011

oh debra what can one say just take it one day at a time and know that there are a lot of people praying for you....soozie

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

I have lots of prayers around me. There really are no words, my youngest son said he didn't know what to say.

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by shirlener88 05 Dec 2011

I am sure tht evrything was fuzzy for you - that day - as time goes by and you go back to the doctor - you will get more info and you will know more of what they can and can't do - then you can let us know - if you want to - if you don't - that is fine, too - just know that we will keep you in our prayers - we know how strong you are and will be - even when you feel like you can't be - don't worry about it - let it come out - as well. Just know you have our shoulders, too and we will be here - when there isn't anyone at home or no one to talk to there.

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

Thank you Shirlene. I can't really "talk" about it without getting too emotional but I have to, my Mom constantly has tears in her eyes and on the phone I can hear it in her voice. If I break down I know they will so I have to be strong. Hubby sees the pain I am in and how I limp from it and said all he wants for Christmas is for me to not be in pain. Awwwww. I made a friend cry when I emailed her that!

leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

why does this cut me off? he sees me in pain and how I limp and says all he wants for Christmas is for me not to be in pain. Aww, I emailed a friend that and made her cry!

shirlener88 by shirlener88 06 Dec 2011

I can only imagine - how your Mom must feel - how difficult it is for her to be strong for you - instead of you being strong for her - I wished I could be therer for you - so you could share your feelings and get the emotion out - I can say - I am with your husband - all I want for Christmas is for you not to be in pain, too.

leenova54 by leenova54 06 Dec 2011

I have only allowed myself to break down once and that was at the asthma doctor, the nurse hugged me and I fell apart. Nobody hugs me.

bowlds by bowlds 06 Dec 2011

I always told people not to sympathize with me or I would fall apart! But my husband saw a lot of tears, and shed alot too when I was sick. It's ok to break down. My mom just chose not to talk about it like it wasn't happening.

theduchess by theduchess 06 Dec 2011

Debra, My thoughts and prayers to Padre Pio are with you.Her's my hugs!Stella

shirlener88 by shirlener88 07 Dec 2011

Deb, I so wished I could give you a big ol HUG - I miss hugs more than anything else.

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by ramona 04 Dec 2011

Prayers are going up for you and your family.

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leenova54 by leenova54 05 Dec 2011

Thank you, with this many people praying how can I not get better?

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by basketkase 04 Dec 2011

Debra..I will lift you up to God in my prayers..I do believe in miracles!!! Hugs to you and God Bless
you....Vicki

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leenova54 by leenova54 04 Dec 2011

Thank you, I plan to fight a good fight!

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by michemb 04 Dec 2011

Dear Debra,
May god keep you safe and hold your hand through all of this.
I will be praying for you and just remember to take one
day at a time.
HUGS
Michelle

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leenova54 by leenova54 04 Dec 2011

Thank you, I have a strong and large prayer group!

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by jaddas 03 Dec 2011

Debra, I will be praying for you.

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leenova54 by leenova54 04 Dec 2011

Thank you, I plan on being just fine!

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by grandmamek 03 Dec 2011

I just read this today. I continue to pray for you and your family every day. Be sure and take your pain pills as you need them. Do not put that off. Be sure and keep us posted, Hugs, Mary

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leenova54 by leenova54 03 Dec 2011

Thank you, I am taking one pill a day and managing OK with that so far. Even got out some decorations today! I will not let this spoil Christmas!

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by gerryvb 03 Dec 2011

you are in my thoughts and my prayers.

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leenova54 by leenova54 03 Dec 2011

Thank you, I have so many people praying for me and sending positive thoughts my way, how can I not beat this!

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by shirlener88 03 Dec 2011

Debra, my dear - so sorry that I have just found this - been away - myself for a few days. I will be praying for you - I know how strong you are and I know you will do whatever you can to fight this - even the strong - some times have to give in and cry a bit - it doesn't make you weak - dear one. Please let us know - what we can do - to help you fight this - OK? If I could change this for you - I would - there is one though that can - so reach out to HIM.

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leenova54 by leenova54 03 Dec 2011

Thank you Shirlene, when the doc said stage 4 it I blanked out on most of the rest. I am going to fight with all I have. My friends and Mom have said that hubby wouldn't know what to do with himself if he lost me. Nice to hear but.....

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by noah 02 Dec 2011

Ah Deb, i don't know what to say that hasn't been said but i will pray hugs carolyn

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leenova54 by leenova54 03 Dec 2011

Yeah, even my adult kids don't know what to say. There isn't much but I refuse to let this get the better of me!

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by kimi 02 Dec 2011

Debra,
I'm so sorry to hear your results, and I will of course continue to pray for you and your family. Having been through the pain of watching some of my close family go through, and the fact that I cry just to hear my 30 or 32 year olds in distress, I can imagine that your mother is just frantic! Please try to have a good holiday with your family and I will say special prayers for your parents! {hugs}

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leenova54 by leenova54 02 Dec 2011

I will enjoy the holidays with my family, I walk in and my Dad asks how I am feeling, I tell him "pretty good" he says I would say that no matter what! My DIL said on Thanksgiving she didn't even realize I was in pain cause I didn't show it. I won't let this get me down! I am 57, my parents are 76 and I won't let them down!

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by aleene 02 Dec 2011

Thinking of you today, My prayer for you is that you have peace and strength for the day, praying for your parents, and all the family.

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leenova54 by leenova54 02 Dec 2011

Thank you, yes, please pray for my parents, they are not handling this very well.

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by jrob Moderator 02 Dec 2011

Praying for you every day, bless you my friend.

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leenova54 by leenova54 02 Dec 2011

Thank you, I am being strong as I can.

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by dlonnahawkins 02 Dec 2011

I truly wish you luck with all that you are having to go through. Please keep us posted, and try not to let the pain get too bad - it takes the meds longer to work then.

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leenova54 by leenova54 02 Dec 2011

Thank you, I will keep all posted.

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by bowlds 02 Dec 2011

And, my daughter's doctor always said to hit the pain early and it will take less medicine to manage it. He said to think of pain as a fire, catch it early and it takes less water!

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leenova54 by leenova54 02 Dec 2011

I am taking one a day for now and it helps quite a bit, getting in and out of the car seems to bring the most pain even after the pill kicks in. I'll adjust as needed.

bowlds by bowlds 02 Dec 2011

Good, pain is not good.

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by mary51 02 Dec 2011

Debra,did you have a chance to read the article?, I know for sure this lady could not walk and now she is 100% cure, I have three trees in my back yard, shame I can not send fruits to you, agriculture would not allow it It is an odd looking fruit, smells like old cheese, and it does not taste good, you have to mix it with honey, I have try it but the smell it too strong.... I have been thinking of drinking it I see many cancer around me, freinds come in regular basis and take a lot to their homes, the trees are always full of fruits.... If they can only smell good.... well I know this lady buys it from a Hawiiam company

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leenova54 by leenova54 02 Dec 2011

Yes I did read about, right now I am looking at so many different things that I am not sure what I am going to do yet.

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by pennifold 02 Dec 2011

Dear Debra,

Glad to see you are fighting this disease. Every positive thought is being sent your way. I am so pleased to read that you are getting other opinions too. Make sure you don't have any pain and please take the pills when needed. I know you are one tough cookie from all the previous posts and will continue to pray for healing. May all the doctors and nurses who treat you also have healing hands.

In the meantime, I'm sending you a Healing Angel.

Love and blessings Chris

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leenova54 by leenova54 02 Dec 2011

Thank you Chris, I am going to give it a fight for sure. My Mom keeps crying and that is hard on me, why am I the one who has to be tough and not break down? I realize she is scared, but damn, I am scared too!

bowlds by bowlds 02 Dec 2011

Mom's don't like to see their kids sick, no matter how old. My daughter was born with heart problems and she's 32 and it still kills me when she is sick. Cancer is scary stuff. You feel so helpless and you are forced to trust doctors (which I'm not good at!) It's ok to cry, I did lots of it, not that it helps! Hand in there and feel the love from the Cuties!

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by asterixsew Moderator 01 Dec 2011

Take care Debra, thanks for posting this, take care and thinking about you

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Thank you for caring. I am determined to kick this.

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by sewold66 01 Dec 2011

My prayers are with you. I was diagnosed with lung cancer in both my lungs 5 years ago and it came back last year. This time I couldn't take all my rounds of chemo. While it sounds bad, I believe God will watch over us. I pray for you and that you will have no more pain. God bless Betty

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Thank you, same to you, hope we both kick this!

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by softhearted1 01 Dec 2011

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers here too Debra. I have a friend going through the same thing here and she keeps saying "I'm gonna fight like a girl!....a darn determined one!" Keep up your spirits and take the pain meds when needed. Hugs, Charlo

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Thank you, I am going to fight hard.

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by jussyc 01 Dec 2011

Debra, Since your last post, I have often taken you into my thoughts. On your latest post I say - Time to wake up (Again) your Defiant Debra Inner Kicking A$$ Gene and start to Fight. Your extended Cute Family are here for you and we are all willing you to Win. Huge Cyber Hug on its way to you. :) *

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Thank you, the kick ass gene has come out, I refuse to give up and plan to fight with all I have! All hugs welcome!

jussyc by jussyc 05 Dec 2011

Good to hear Debra, Im imagining your shadow boxing already :)

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by mary51 01 Dec 2011

Debra, praying for you, I am very sorry about this. I have a close friend she had HAD cancer read an article about a fruit juice NONI, and stared drinking it, last check up the Dr. told her He does not want to see her for ten years, she was cure!!!! she buys it through a Haiwian comp. I know is around 60 dollars concentrated juice, maybe you could google, she is been drinking it for more than 3 years.... Hope you get out of this stronger!!

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

I will keep that in mind and look it up. I will fight with all I have.

capoodle by capoodle 02 Dec 2011

Found this article on the Noni juice. Lots of good information.

http://www.cancertutor.com/Cancer...

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by judybell 01 Dec 2011

Debra, I too will continue to lift you up in prayer. I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Hugs, Judy

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Thank you Judy, I will take anything I can get!

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by ansalu 01 Dec 2011

Debra I had hoped you will hear better news but I know you are a tough cookie :o)
Although there is no need for more pain than necessary and you need your force for other things now.
You know you are in my thoughts through my days...
Big hugs to you
Bettina

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Thank you dear Bettina, I know you are always thinking of me and I plan to stick around for quite some time. I am tough and I will fight and take more pain pills too.

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by drro 30 Nov 2011

Dear Debra, God bless you and keep you as you make this journey again! I return to this part of Cute now each time to see how you are doing and thank you for being so brave to write and share yourself here! I hug you from the East coast and am sending you BIG hugs as well as many prayers! God Keep you and your family!!

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Thank you, I was hoping it would not be this bad but I will fight.

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by kalinelson 30 Nov 2011

I will continue to keep you in my prayers....may God speak healing to your body....Gods blessings.

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

thank you, going to fight this.

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by aleene 30 Nov 2011

TAKE THE PAIN PILL, there is no need for you to hurt! You can fight harder if you ease the pain. I was in stage 4 bone cancer. that was 17 years ago. Our God heal through doctors, and miracles. through the blood of Jesus.

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Glad to hear it can be beaten. I was not aware that the pain isn't just hurt but taking a toll on the body also so I am going to take one pill a day and see how I do.

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by devon 30 Nov 2011

Sending you BIG hugs and prayers your way. Hugs DeVon

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leenova54 by leenova54 01 Dec 2011

Thank you, all hugs welcome!

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by bowlds 30 Nov 2011

I love an oncologist that looks at you like you're crazy for rationing pain medication. Do not suffer with pain, it will only make your body more stressed and you don't need that.

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leenova54 by leenova54 30 Nov 2011

I am only rationing them because I don't want to get hooked on them. How many people are told they have stage 4 cancer and their worry is getting hooked on pain pills? LOL!!

bowlds by bowlds 30 Nov 2011

I would not worry one little bit about getting hooked on them. Make yourself comfortable. There is a difference between taking a handfull to get high and taking some to combat pain.

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by capoodle 30 Nov 2011

You toughed out the first go round with this and now there are better treatment options. Praying that a different chemo drug will destroy all the cancer this time. Hugs.

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leenova54 by leenova54 30 Nov 2011

Yes I did and I plan to fight this time too, just the words stage 4 are scary.

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by sewbadly 30 Nov 2011

Debra, take the pain pills.
You are dealing with so much right now... hang in there and fight like the dickens.
Very best wishes to you and your family.

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leenova54 by leenova54 30 Nov 2011

Hanging on as tight as I can, my parents are not handling it well.

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