with a psychiatrist for my income insurance. I strongly suspect it will be decided that I must take an early retirement, I am only 45. This is very scary for me after 21 years as a nurse and working so hard to build a career. I have no idea what my future holds.

Hi I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. God will show you what he wants you to do next. Keep an open mind and listen for when he shows you what he wants you to do. Suzanne

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by fannyfurkin 31 Oct 2010

thank you Suzanne, I believe that God will show me the way and I think he is starting to. but I do think that the prayers from my friends here have helped so much.

Linda is so right!!! My Mom used to tell me that the Lord doesn't close one door without opening another. Depression & anxiety are hard. I've been on meds for it for several years- some days are harder than others and it's hard when you second guess yourself all the time. You might not go back to nursing but you might do more digitizing or something totally new and different. Do something! Whatever you can handle, do something to keep your mind and hands occupied. You can always volunteer for your kindness has already helped many. Just keep yourself busy so you don't dwell on all the what ifs. Take one day at a time and trust in the Lord for strength and courage to face whatever He has planned for you.
Bless you,
Meri

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by fannyfurkin 31 Oct 2010

Yes Meri, Your mother was right, I think God is now showing me the way, I really believe bizarre as it sounds that God thinks I can reach more people with my embroidery than I could with my nursing.
I keep going back to Jesus' words that I think he spoke especially for me . Matthew 6 26.27. Look at the birds in they air, they do not sow or reap or stow away in barns, yet your heavenly father feeds them, are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?

Dear Alice,

I'm so glad the assessment went well. God was in control and sent you His peace. Sometimes we just need to take time to sit back and listen to His voice. Love Chris

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by fannyfurkin 28 Oct 2010

thank you Chris, I feel quite relieved.

I can assure you that there is life after retirement. I taught Special Ed for 28 years and I am loving retirement. You are not alone, you have all of us here who care about you. This is an opportunity to regain your health and to do something new, like embroidery. Keep talking to us, and ask for prayer support whenever you need it.

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by fannyfurkin 28 Oct 2010

I am not worried about the life part it was the money bit I was worried about. I don't remember to many times in my life that I have been bored especially in the last 18 months while I have been off work I have been very busy. I was hoping that my embroidery business would be starting to hold it's own by now, but it is not. So I will just have to keep trying. Thanks for your supportive words it really does help to have people to vent to.

Fanny, I don't think nurses get all the prasie that is due them. Thank you and all the others in the medical field for all they do and the kindness they show people. Will continue to pray that God's will is done in your life.
God bless and hugs, Judy

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by fannyfurkin 28 Oct 2010

Thanks Judy.

If it is meant for you to go back to nursing, the Lord will show you the way and give you the means to handle the situation. If He has other things in mind for you, then maybe the change will be a very good one. As long as you believe and accept the Lord's will, your life will regain all of the interest and enjoyment that you once had in your life's work. You will be in my prayers! No matter what you and the assessment decides for your future, trust in yourself and in the Lord. He will carry you when you are not able to carry yourself. God Bless! Linda

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by fannyfurkin 28 Oct 2010

Thank you Linda, this is so true. God never gives us more than we can cope with, we just sometimes feel like we can't cope but we always do.

I'm so glad your outcome today was what you wanted.....I'm glad there is no prayer too small or too big for our God, He cares about all our needs.....may He continue to direct your path.....Gods blessings Janet

Alice, I'm just now seeing this and you have had an answer to prayer. God IS Good...I hope everything will work according to God's plan in your life. Blessings and Hugs, Terre

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by fannyfurkin 28 Oct 2010

You know Terre, the minute I posted this I felt so much more calm, I knew that all of the lovely cuties would pray for me and God would hear them.

So here is the update. I have had the assessment, the Psychiatrist is going to recommend that In need a further six months of treatment.This is the best outcome, because now I will have another 6 months to work out what I am doing. God has heard all of your prayers, Thank you.
Alice

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by sewmom 27 Oct 2010

It is good that you have more time. It will help you relax and not feel so stressed.

Fanny I was saddened to hear this.Having been a nurse for many yrs. I know how easy it is to slip into a depression. I am retired now but just renewed my license for another 2 yrs. & will be 74 before it will be due again. Prayers are going up for you. God has a reason for everything so keep trusting Him . He will see you through.

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by fannyfurkin 27 Oct 2010

It is funny how everyone expects nurses to be bullet proof. we are only human after all, and particularly sensitive ones at that, that is why we care so much. It is sad when a system neglects to care for it's most valuable asset and burns us out. I have not lost my passion for nursing. I don't think I ever will but I can't be part of that system any longer, I now need to find a new path.

by joann13100 27 Oct 2010

Perhaps you could do nursing in another setting that is less stressful. Nurse burn out is a problem everywhere. You are right about nurses being neglected by the very system they serve.

Alice, I am sure you have been to your assesment - perhaps you do not know what they recommeneded - but prayrs were said on your behalf and I will also include mine for you. May you find acceptance of his will for you.

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by fannyfurkin 27 Oct 2010

Shirlene I read this message on my iphone when I was still on the train to my assessment. I am now home and the assessment is done, I do know what the recommendation will be. Everyones prayers were heard. God gives us what we need, not necessarily what we want or we think we need. I believe that the he has looked after me today, as he always does. thank you for your prayers.

Sending you hugs. Prayers are done.

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by fannyfurkin 27 Oct 2010

I felt your hugs and God heard your prayers. Thank you.

Will pray that the love of God enfolds you during your difficult time. The future can seem overwhelming so remember that it comes one moment at a time.

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by fannyfurkin 27 Oct 2010

God heard all of the prayers and gave me a sense of calm. Thank you for your prayers.

My prayers for you. Hope everything works out for the best.

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by fannyfurkin 27 Oct 2010

Thank you Tippi, I think God heard all of the prayers.
Alice

You do have my prayers and please remember, that although you have no idea what your future holds, God does and that's a really good thing.

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by fannyfurkin 26 Oct 2010

Thank you. you are right of course. I have seen it so many times in my life, when you think all hope is lost God sends you the answer.