by toogie 18 Mar 2020

Hello Cuties, I know the world is all affected by this COVID-19, non are exempt. We must remember in all this to be the best we can be. We can't let fear overtake us. Fear does no one any good. Actually, I believe fear harms us, by weakening our immune systems. I had something on my heart so much, I knew I would be sick if I didn't confront it.

I feel so much better today, about my brother-in-law. He was diagnosed with Cancer last week and really bad. I think I had been crying more, because I could not bear the thought of him leaving this world unsaved, than I was about him dying.
After speaking with him I learned he accepted Christ about 10 years ago! I was relieved. When he said he knows at times he backslid, I hope I reassured him about forgiveness. He can't let sin/anything separate him from God. God forgives when you humbly confess and truly repent. I believe this, because He says he will and His word is Truth.
I would like you to remember Douglas in prayer. God may or may not choose to heal him. We have to pray God's will be done. I do pray his pain is eased, though. The last few days have been increasingly worse, even though he is on strong pain medication. I think the next step is morphine.
I do struggle also with my feelings about his understanding. Douglas' wife and both daughters were in the room when the doctor said, " Mr.Douglas you are in bad shape. The cancer is fracturing the spine." It has metastasized from somewhere else.
Douglas told my husband Monday, and me today, when the doctor gets his back infection cleared up he will feel better and come visit with us again.
None of us can understand how 3 people heard 'cancer' and he heard 'infection'. The oldest daughter told my sister-in-law Jenny that she needs to sit Douglas down and talk to him. Jenny doesn't want to talk about it to him, because she said if he really understands, she is afraid of what he could do. (They are the grandparents a few years ago their grandson committed suicide and she found him) She doesn't want to find Douglas like that. Jenny still works and Douglas is home alone during the day.
I am torn between understanding like the daughter, he needs to know. But then I respect Jenny's wishes because I wouldn't want him to intentionally harm himself. What a place to be!

Also with all this going on worldwide, one of our son-in-laws is stuck out of the country. His flight was rerouted 3 times and then canceled. We pray he doesn't get sick with no one there to help him. My daughter does hear from him daily, so that helps.
So life goes on. Not normal daily lives like we are used to. He tell us not to worry about tomorrow. We are more important than the birds of the field and He feeds them. We can get through this. May God bless and keep each and every one of you safe and well-Toogie

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Comments (9)

by sewdeb 19 Mar 2020

Oh, Toogie,of course I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Take care, dear lady of yourself, too! Hugs*, Deb