by debswebster 09 May 2015

Sadly we said good-bye to my dear little boy this evening. He was the apple of my eye and brought me so much love and joy. My heart is broken, he was my baby for 14 years, but I know his angel wings took him straight up to doggie heaven.

I bottle-fed him since birth and he was really my baby up until his last breath in my arms. He had been ill since October and I took care of him day and nite for the past 7 months. I knew he would never be 100%. We had good days and more bad days, but I was determined to "love" him alive. Over the last month he deteriorated and his lungs began to fill up and he coughed continuously. He was born with a heart murmur and his heart was straining. I could no longer watch him suffer, but I couldn't let him go either. It tore my heart out to finally make the decision to let him go gently, for both our sakes... I have to believe this!
Farewell and RIP my Tikkie, my Handsome boy...Mommy's love. xxx

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by basketkase 11 May 2015

Oh my, most of us with animals know the pain you are going through....I am so sorry you lost this handsome boy.........You gave him a wonderful life and for that you will have beautiful memories.....

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debswebster by debswebster 11 May 2015

Thank you....beautiful memories for sure!!

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by pldc 11 May 2015

My heart goes out to you is a perfect sentiment because it does. He was a beautiful dog & he knew that you loved him. I wish I had the words to ease your pain......I hope that knowing how much he loved you makes it a wee bit easier for you ~hugs~

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debswebster by debswebster 11 May 2015

Thank you my dear......the bond was amazingly strong, he lay like a baby, in my arms, in my bed every morning. aahhh. My heart has been skipping beats and I cannot sleep. I miss him so.

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by AllRaggedy 11 May 2015

My heart goes out to you. I have had to put 3 of our pets down, and the heartbreak is beyond description. I feel your pain and pray that a new fuzzy love out there will warm your heart in the future. Your doggie had the most adorable little face. Rest in peace dear Tikkie. Debswebster please know that you in our thoughts and prayers. God bless you.

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debswebster by debswebster 11 May 2015

Yes, I can relate...I had a brood of 5, all Maltese and he was the last to go, and my most precious love of all. I got a new little girl Tessa 3 years ago who has only known him..and she is lost without him now. Now she will be queen of the house.

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by connerj 11 May 2015

So sorry. I lost my boy 1 and 1/2 years ago and still miss him so. We have two other dogs but its just not to same. I plan on getting another dog when my grand daughter is a little older (3 1/2 is not the best age for a small sized dog.) Best wishes for a brighter day. :)

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debswebster by debswebster 11 May 2015

I have another little (bigger) girl who turned 3yrs in March. My dear friend gave her to me for the purpose of being Tikkie's eyes, she would also bark loudly to tell him when it was toilet time as he was partially deaf. They were a good team. She is in mourning too and hiding under the bed, so sad isn't it? I am blessed to have her.

basketkase by basketkase 11 May 2015

I am so happy to hear that you have another animal to pour your love and broken heart into......one of our cats grieved for several weeks after the loss of her big brother......your girl will pull out of it with your patience and love........

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by cfidl 11 May 2015

My sympathies to you. I hope the aching fades quickly and you find your heart engaged with a new love.

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debswebster by debswebster 11 May 2015

I have a friend who, only yesterday, homed 2 little rescues....she is pointing them my way, but I can't look as I am a total pushover!!

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by grossfamilie 10 May 2015

Oh dear, this is so sad. I can understand your decision. Had to do this for one of our cats - will never forget - but he suffered so much in the end; had cancer on his nose and he scratched there with his claws and did not know why this gave him more pain and so finally it was heart-
breaking when he cried and we took him to the vet to release him from the struggle...
Now your sweet little doggie is at rest and has no more pain. You will always keep him treasured in your memories and heart - 14 years he was your dear mate and you never will forget him. Take care - thinking of you - Maria

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debswebster by debswebster 11 May 2015

Same thing with my daughter's Siamese cat - he also had cancer on his nose.....same outcome too. His name was Winston, he had one blue eye and one green!

grossfamilie by grossfamilie 11 May 2015

Thank you for your reply. Winston was very special then considering two different eye colours. When the nose cancer happened to our little "Tomi" the whole family was so sad and upset - imagining the cat is completely covered with fur - only the nose is not protected and here the cancer hit him. Probably you were thinking about that too

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by sewgroupie 10 May 2015

I can empathize with you, Dear. Our 80 lb "baby" died 2 years ago. We have her toys etc. displayed and still miss her. But we have wonderful memories and some day you will get pleasure from your wonderful memories. God bless. Suz

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debswebster by debswebster 11 May 2015

Today I washed his jacket, blanket and pillowcase for the last time; threw away all his medication and feeding syringes, put away his food bowl and wept. I certainly have wonderful memories!!

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by tuross 10 May 2015

My heart aches for you.

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debswebster by debswebster 11 May 2015

Thank you for your thoughts

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by zoefzoef 10 May 2015

I can also feel you pain. It is not easy to say goodbye to a dear friend. 'cos that's what our pets are, true dear friends forever. Comfort yourself a bit that he 's not suffering anymore and remember all the times you had together. Hugs send.

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

Thank you so much for feeling with me.

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by dragonflyer 10 May 2015

So, so very sad to hear about your little Tikkie...I will keep you in my prayers...

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

Thank you dragonflyer, I am in such mourning today.

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by baydreamer 10 May 2015

The loss must be overwhelming , I am so sorry!

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

Yes, I am half myself today..Thank you

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by gerryvb 10 May 2015

I'm so sorry, but sometimes we have to decide what's best....even it it so hard to say goodbye....good thing: we are able to give him rest and peace after all these years of love and joy.....He must have been very happy to have you as his boss. Cherish all the lovely memories.....of your baby .
(My little dog is 14 and a half now....)

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

You will totally understand the love of 14 years...it's overwhelming. Thank you.

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by rmj8939 10 May 2015

I am so sorry for your loss. That was a hard decision to make but you did it out of love for hime.

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

I know it had to be. Thank you.

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by marianb 10 May 2015

So sorry for the loss of you precious little man, unfortunately I know how painful it is to make that decision. He can play in doggy heaven with my husky Blake Edward. Marian

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

Yes my precious little man will be playing away!!

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by airyfairy 10 May 2015

I am so very sorry. The pain of loosing our pets is overbearing. Your little dog was very lucky to have you. My little Pekingese is not too well either and at 15 years I am wondering when I am going to have to make the decision. Hugs Sarah

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

I missed him so much today. We had a routine that I am lost without. Fed him 3 times a day and had to carry him out to toilet as he was totally blind and deaf too.

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by gerryb 10 May 2015

I know the pain of losing a pet. But you did the right thing. I hate to see an animal suffer. Sorry for your loss.

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

He never complained. He felt so safe and totally relaxed in my arms. I couldn't bear hearing his lungs crackle any longer. It just had to be.

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by jrob Moderator 09 May 2015

You loved him so unselfishly. It takes courage to let them go when all you want is to keep them with you. I'm sorry for your loss.

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

I looked for him many times today. I sooooo wanted to keep him forever.

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by noah 09 May 2015

Oh my*** we feel the same about our boy Mr.Peeko .
May God be with you in your time of need big hus from my heart Carolyn

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

Thanks Carolyn.

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by Leaha 09 May 2015

Sorry for your loss, this little cutie has become your guardian angel and will still share your life by watching over you. Heaven is only a memory away.

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debswebster by debswebster 10 May 2015

He was my angel on earth, now in heaven.

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by 02kar Moderator 09 May 2015

Tikki is certainly your furbaby and always will be. I'm so sorry you had to say good bye to him, but he will always be in your heart and mind. . Remember the years of memories and let them bring a smile to that sad mouth. You are not alone, but have all of the Cuties grieving with you for a beloved family member.

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debswebster by debswebster 09 May 2015

Thank you for caring. xoxo

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by asterixsew Moderator 09 May 2015

As Crafter has said our furbabies are our part of our families and its very hard to say goodbye. Keep the good memories that you have of Tikkie and remember that what you chose at the end was to save more suffering for him. This is very tough though. My thoughts are with you

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debswebster by debswebster 09 May 2015

Thanks for the encouragement xoxo

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by crafter2243 Moderator 09 May 2015

Our pets are our family members and it is heartbreaking to have to say good by to them.It is double hard when we have to make the decision for them. Watching them in misery and pain is horrible. You did the right thing. Hugs to you.

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debswebster by debswebster 09 May 2015

Thank you for saying it was the right thing to do, xoxo

cathleen by cathleen 10 May 2015

It is soo hard to do but you must. I will be doing just this with my 15 and a half year old very shortly. Blessings and comfort to you......

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